... to enjoy being single.
Aged 22 I have had only one long term relationship and few but lovely short term things. I date, quite a lot in recent months but mostly because I enjoy meeting new people. There was no 'spark' with any of them if I'm honest, I don't believe things like that grow with time. It's either there it or it isn't. Not love, just a tiny spark to get you excited. My last 'relationship' was a few years ago but I haven't been that bothered in having anything serious since. That does not mean I sleep around! Woah!
I think either I expect too much, am too fussy or I scare the good guys off, my personality can hit you like a ton of bricks if I'm comfortable enough with you, but it's who I am and I like me.
Everybody else around me is in a relationship and it's gotten to the point my family/friends have stopped asking if I'm 'seeing anyone'. I do see people, ie more than dating and less than a serious relationship (again, not in a slutty way) feelings involved but as are complications. Complications always seem to find me and this might be the underlying reason I avoid relationships. I'm not a fan of drama in situation. I think a relationship should be with somebody you consider a best friend as well as somebody you find so fucking irresistible and who makes your heart beat that little faster and is the reason for the twinkle in your eye. The person who can make you happy just by being in the same room, who cheers you up by saying nothing and doesn't give a shit if you have serious conversations with your cats.
I don't just have relationships with anyone, I am, according to family and friends, very fussy. I have to 'feelings' or at least a spark with someone to consider taking it to the serious level. I enjoy my life as it is, I don't need a man there. I see my friends as and when I please and do what I want when I want. I'm not saying couples don't do this but in my experience couples are clingy and around each other 24/7. Maybe I am just jealous, been single too long so just found myself used to it. Some people are used to relationships, I'm used to being on my own. (Christ, this sounds remotely 'pity me', it isn't!) I either really like people who are taken/friends or go on dates with people who really aren't my type whatsoever just for the 'craic. It's for this reason I've stopped dating for a while. I wouldn't say no if the right-ish one came along but I have other things keeping me happy right now. I don't hate on couples, if I did I'd have no friends, I'm the permanent third wheel for christ sake!
I don't just have relationships with anyone, I am, according to family and friends, very fussy. I have to 'feelings' or at least a spark with someone to consider taking it to the serious level. I enjoy my life as it is, I don't need a man there. I see my friends as and when I please and do what I want when I want. I'm not saying couples don't do this but in my experience couples are clingy and around each other 24/7. Maybe I am just jealous, been single too long so just found myself used to it. Some people are used to relationships, I'm used to being on my own. (Christ, this sounds remotely 'pity me', it isn't!) I either really like people who are taken/friends or go on dates with people who really aren't my type whatsoever just for the 'craic. It's for this reason I've stopped dating for a while. I wouldn't say no if the right-ish one came along but I have other things keeping me happy right now. I don't hate on couples, if I did I'd have no friends, I'm the permanent third wheel for christ sake!
All I'm saying is, if you to like me enjoy your own space, your own time and being single then don't be afraid to shout about it. Don't let people pity you. Be proud of everything else you have achieved or are achieving in your life.
BXO
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